Haven't blogged for quite sometime, that's a change.
Last week was a week of holiday from school. No holiday in teaching though, it gets ever busy, now with Evina coming back to me for Statistics and uncle for Econs.
Wonder when I can have a proper break!
I did quite a lot past days, like dinner out with Pei En (babe that's awesomely fun) at Bedok Corner and stuffing the hell out of ourselves, then comparing tummy fat. HAHA. I went over to Adela's residence for KK, kim chee, and korean grapes (which was God-mode). I went for badminton twice at Clementi. Changi V, ice-creams and paper planes. There was also the weekend of visiting the relatives houses, eating like bears going into hibernation, gossip gossip gossip (mainly by Yana!). Went swimming over at Fatin's, with Yana's OTT dance moves which shook the whole MPV, Nadz's most horrible sense of direction, Fatin's driving. And J's Wok for the night.
Training yesterday was great. I cannot wait, really cannot wait for after A's, with (hopefully) more people joining. I want to see where I actually stand skillwise.
AND WATER SOCCER ON THE 14TH NOVEMBER.
Kwek Pei En offered to pay half for my refurbished shuffle as an early birthday gift. Haha I feel quite awkward if people give me gifts, so please don't.
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I told her about a particular someone (a friend no less) always discussing her to me. And I suggested.
And if she knows.
She does, and said "I'm not stupid you know, I'm from ___ (we shall not disclose the school name) obviously I'd know."
And if she's aware, why does her signs contradict what she supposedly feel? Hm I don't know if it's fun toying around but it's definitely not fun being on the receiving end. It left quite a sour taste in my mouth. How can you not pity my friend??
Meh, I find such behaviour quite unneeded, leading others down the garden path. I wonder what goes through her mind when she acts as she does.
So weird.
Society had really trancend into a level beyond comprehension due to superficiality. So everybody wants to be stick thin and pretty. Anyone overweight/ugly/'defective' would be (don't deny it, all of you) looked at differently. We all aspire to look like Kate Moss or Heidi Klum without actually looking inside us for true beauty. What happened to 'loving someone for who they are?'
There's a race to be homogenous. Soon everyone would go under the knife and coming out looking just like the person beside them. I don't understand all this need to be beautiful outside. What matters is character. At the end of the day, you can look like Ms Universe but if your personality is without depth, then there would be no meaning to it. I hear the rants about small boobs, big thighs, ugly face, crooked teeth, unruly hair, me-eye-isn't-green! etc etc etc. I wonder why they are not thankful of how 'complete' we're created. Why don't they say a little prayer of gratitude to God for making them able-bodied, with a complete set of limbs.
I wonder why God doesn't take away their perfection and give it to someone else who could appreciate it better than they.
Anyway I learned Cannonball on the guitar! I happily warbled away to my favourite tune during insomnia nights.
By the way Hamz haven't tried the honey method but hope it'll work! Syahril called just now to meet up but it'll probably be tomorrow. I hate long long breaks.
But now I'm in love with Thursdays :D
I can't wait for them to finish A's.
I'll have more time in hand,
I don't have to worry so much,
and I don't have to strain my poor poor diminishing braincells.
And you give, I get, without giving anything to me.
Phew what a week. it wasn't unpleasant, but it wasn't altogether good either.
Sometimes I feel there's so much, overwhelming thoughts and emotions that I feel like I'm bursting, like a balloon filled with some kind of poison that kills, that tear and that bites with teeth so sharp it's numbing.
Meh.
SO moving on, my dad was in Singapore for the whole of last week, and you don't know how edgy I get when he's around, simply because I get on my nerve, or there's just no space in the world for two huge egos.
Class was per normal, with all the buzz of Hari Raya (though it gets less and less of a Hari Raya every passing year), frantically trying to understand damned models, and crazy derivations, amidst cleaning the room (my mum stood by the doorway to my room for five minutes to stare at the already cleared room, I think I should upload pictures to show you why) and mum said I have to look at it first before it gets messy.
Got my white blinds fixed up, and a colourful rug thrown on the floor to offset all the pink and whiteness in my room (goodness, with that kind of colour combination I feel so... feminine, I think I should take up knitting). I lost my head on Tuesday hence skipped school (yes I am NOT suppose to but when I'm in that sort of mood I'd even swear at a stranger, which I did while walking down the pavement, I am sorry), so I caught a movie Youth Without Youth (alone, yes) to calm down. God I hate it when I'm like that, mind so clouded felt so unclear and just... bla.
Hari Raya was good (even without the mood...). The lack of mood's probably the fault of the examinations lurking beneath the grubs. Anyway, for the first time, EVERYONE was at my maternal grandma's (even Cha and family!). That was my happiest time in life, simply love them all :DD I broke fast there on Tuesday evening and Nur and Cha was there so we sat around, chat, tried clothes, and nearly wanted to run down and buy sparklers. So we took the huge family photo, even Uncle Di participate, albeit being reluctant. Oh the love!
Then the usual first day houses, this year was good because althought recession is setting in very soon Malay people don't feel it, hence money flowing in. How awesome.
Thursday was that long long day in school, but I met Adela and Riz for lunch so it quite make up for the tiredness. Plus, I finally saw Charles (and can't help staring at...) was trying so hard to not laugh. Time pass fast with good company.
Rooms get colder by the hour and by the last lecture (which was boring boring Economets, I really should get the text by Dogherty, Gujarati's was so dry I nearly hydrate it with water) I was freezing my toes off, though I'm doing better than Andrea, I swear she turned blue.
Oh the week was all about people giving me food, Dewi baked cookies lol! And because Kat and Minal didn't turn up, she gave me the whole bunch. Happiness for free! Then Adela made her own chocolates (I didn't know people still do that) and of course I'm always the guinea pig. It's good for a first try.
Went out visiting on Friday and Sunday. Entertaining our spoilt but cute cousin Dina, we (me and Yasmin) played her game. And so we decided to be annoying and cheat and she lost so many times she was sulking. It was such a laugh.
Tarzan is a monkey man
sitting on a rubber band
hopscotch the rubber band
what colour is his underpants?
I miss all these games, like Vampire Bat (or what?? I don't know) and that finger-breaking thing.
And it's awesome to cheat with small kids they look SO cute when they go off in a huff haha!
Saturday was spent teaching, in baju kurung. My God.
Talking about teaching, my year 2s are going to be gone in 26 days time.
I feel that days past in such a blur, and it's with such a heavy heart that it has to end.
I'll save it when that time comes and I'll be tearing about it (though I hope none of them will know about it, they'll probably have a heart attack knowing I actually cared).
D:
Oh and pass few days were a few birthdays, more notable was KWEK PEI EN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG.
And my boyf's birthday too, though he doesn't read this so no point wishing.
And I treated him to a surprise hotel dinner just now, he looked like such a happy small boy hahaha! It was wonderful just walking and eating. I tried raw swordfish (wtf I know, it actually taste good).
And I had my fair share of surprise, which I'll say he did it again and I have the urge to slaughter him.
Oh breakfast was with the males just now, failed in trying to study together so we head down to Bras Basah, when I saw a Gujarati sticking out and tried reading it (to no avail obviously). I secretly spied at Syahril and I saw that he was giggling to himself while reading the (I'm not kidding with this one) A DICTIONARY. WHO THE FUCK LAUGHS WHILE READING THE DICTIONARY?!
Hamz nose was running a marathon and dripping, we decided to have lunch nearby.
Up the rooms for rent! The poor couple was mistaken, poor things (Hamz we need to apologise to them).
OH music. That CD Shop had this 3 for 50$ so I went and bought Death Magnetic, Viva La Vida, and Air Supply's Best Hits. I was most eager to tear the cellophane paper of Death Magnetic and insert it to the player.
And Death Magnetic, thankfully, wasn't anything like St. Anger.
AND THANKFUL FOR THAT. It was reminiscent of '...And Justice For All' combined with that bit of Black Album.
So fucking good I called him up and let him listen to it (I'm glad he loves metal too).
Sigh, Metallica, please come to Singapore.
I haven't listen to the other two yet, still hyped after listening to Judas Kiss and All Nightmare Long. Ohmygod I'm so glad it's not St. Anger once more, it'll be disappointing to the point of tears.
Dream Theater recently released their Chaos In Motion DVD, their live dvd from their tours around the world.
I WANT THE LIMITED EDITION SET.
Sorry it's been long since I've raved on about music, particularly metal music. I have still to buy Opeth's Watershed. Heard it's good too.
Anyway best friend's off in Germany, and called when he's at the airport to sing me a Hari Raya song before farewells (he sound like he's dying, the poor soul). He text saying that he had found peace in Germany, and I'm like, what, did you visit the gas chambers and reached Nirvana or something?
He's such a weird thing but so long he's happy.
Qing called saying that it's so fucking boring at the army, felt like a fucking dog, obeying shit orders.
(: Still the same.
My gay side isn't leaving anytime soon, whispering so seductively it's hard to resist.
But I must persist.
